This is going to be a hard few weeks onward. I think it's been a few years since I felt real sad (though thankfully this doesn't touch the eternal fire + solid intuitive voices underneath). I don't remember last time feeling this sad.
I've spontaneously shed lots of excess surface fire this week, but didn't expect for another huge shedding moment coming, and this one is going to have deeper effect. This week I've been feeling more stoic than fiery that at some point I feared so much to lose all the fire but thankfully that's not the case - I believe it was actually a sign of moving forward / growing so to speak. Actually I've asked for another deep change for the better for some time, to help taming some fire for better clarity and efficient energy - this could be my very answer, though didn't expect to be somewhat painful..
So due to certain circumstances, I was kinda cornered to a few choices. Despite having already an inclination to one decision, out of curiosity sake I asked Reddit about their choices. Immediately I received responses, surprisingly NOBODY, NOT A SINGLE ONE supported my preferred solution! Some were reacting harshly too.
My intuition about my preferred way is strong enough that after done being offended for a few seconds, I became more in AWE about how they think. As I was reading their posts, I could see all of them prioritizing safety, security, comfort, to borderline animosity towards adventure / living life at all. Wowww.. no wonder people are so anxious these days, they might have been living too sterile lives, just so much fear of the outside world ('thanks' to the news?)!
Maybe I was wrong in the wording, maybe I missed out or forgot to include more contextual explanations that they reacted so opposingly, but still.. this alone made me WONDER! I think it's no use to explain further, though the mob might change their minds when I did but that's not really my goal - better saving my energy for a puzzle hunt subreddit! 😂
I wont say a word about the full thing coz it might spark more unnecessary controversies, and bah I've lost enough time on this. Rest assured though, this isn't anything REALLY disturbing or offensive.
This case is humbling, I mean deciding to act on what I believe is right despite the pain & lack of support is NO stranger to me but this one unexpectedly really shed my tears (thought I'm a tough cookie lol), it's so GROUNDING. And as if it's having a fractal-like nature, it's affecting also every other aspects within, EVOLVING the whole form of ego. Believe it or not I genuinely sense these tears are healthy, the state is 'pure' sadness, as pure as RAIN, it's simply weather, part of NATURE.
Daaaaaym.. thought I could be Jax-like all my life (minus the murder) lmao! Seriously I'm not sure if I can laugh satisfyingly to the so-called 'idiots' the same way after going through this oh noooesss..!! 😆
Another thing I learned is their rejections of my idea somehow
strengthen my conviction that my intuition is right, I think I'm now
getting even better in separating my genuine voice within (which I
believe is right) and outside NOISE (which is just that: noise of simply
fear of the unknown), like separating oil and water.
And I'm sensing another precious blue diamond insight surfacing following all these.. something to do with even a deeper bliss of NON-ATTACHMENT, might help greatly with my anger on the disturbing universe.. wow I guess this is my way of "meditation", not via monk-like sitting down, haha..
Anyway, now I must prepare for it.
A LITTLE hardship is good and I believe this will be good for EVERYONE involved (you'll thank me later, so to speak).
If you happen to get setbacks a lot, it still could be good - what can kill you, CAN kill you, but it can also MAKE you. No need for false or forced optimism, I'd say be aware of both potentials, and try making the best choice, DARE to go through the consequences all the way.
Because it's not about the ups and downs, chasing all the pleasures, avoid all the pains. It's about discovering there's an ever-unchanging sense of bliss (safety, security, and comfort are INCLUDED!) UNDERNEATH all those ever-changing variables!
For whatever is happening on the outside / surface, deep down you are ALREADY SAFE, deep down you're ALREADY ENOUGH, deep down you're ALREADY BLISSFUL.
( { ..because it's basically 'just' a GAME ;) } - another gem for another story! )
And the way to discover that TRUE SENSE OF SAFETY is including having the courage to go through the pains, mistakes, failures, the lower phases. Whatever happens, you'll FIGURE IT OUT, you'll be okay.
Have some faith in NATURE / UNIVERSE ?
{ don't fight, accept it }
{ don't hold, just DROP THEM ALL }
{ don't avoid the pain, feel it though the way }
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PS:
I'm not talking about REALLY DISTURBING hardships - for all perpetrators just BURN BURN BURN 'EM ON STAKES FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER!!!!!
And may all the victims 1,000% alleviated off all the sufferings and never remember such sh**ttes ever existed!!!!
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